''Imperfection is beauty, madness is genius, and it's better to be absolutely ridiculous than absolutely boring'' Marilyn Monroe

Saturday, 30 July 2011

whimsical musings...

So I am now an official graduate- I am out of education and into the big wide world of adulthood. And this is the last long summer that I have before I begin the rest of my life. In this period before it all starts I have nothing to do and therefore I have come to realise a few things about myself... This things are not massive revelations or anything majorly important but I am sitting here home alone and wanted to write away. 
So here it is...

1. I only like to drink tea if it is out of a pretty mug- don't know why but my mind says that it is wrong if the mug is not pretty. 

2. I love the e-harmony adverts with the random singing meetings- music shop and train station- if you haven't seen them then I suggest that you try to discover them because they are wonderful. 

3.I have tooooo much stuff. The fact that all my junk would not fit in my mums massive car when I moved out of my uni house was the first indicator - the fact I had to clear out my room in my parents house before I could unpack was the second.. oops 

4.I get bored very quickly and do better when I have something to do- anything to do really, including housework :/ 

5. I love to drive, even if it isn't to anywhere specific- it is just beautiful. 

6. i love wearing dresses, they make me feel all grown up, like a proper adult :) it makes me happy. 

So anyway back to my cup of tea in its beautiful mug. Also the sun is shining outside and it is lovely 


Friday, 8 July 2011

I wanna run...smash into you...

In this summer time where I am in a lull between to busy years I find myself outside of my comfort zone. 

Comfort Zone; Noun: A place or situation where one feels safe or at ease and without stress

I am outside of my comfort zone mainly because I am having to spend most of my time alone and being an extravert this makes me uneasy. I like to be surrounded by people and to be busy rushing from place to place. However at the moment this is not possible and so I am finding myself alone with my thoughts and wonderings. 

One of these wonderings today was actually on comfort zone's - hence the above definition. I was thinking about how there is often a lot of talk amongst Christians about getting out of your comfort zone. I always thought that it meant being pushed to do something big and dramatic; move to a new place or give up a huge part of your life. 
I realised today that it is not necessarily a dramatic change but sometimes simply a look at the way you live your life. 
For me at the moment I have realised that I do not like spending time alone - my Dad very wisely reminded me that I am never alone and that Jesus is always with me even if I can't see Him. This made me think- I have days and days of just me and Jesus but somehow this makes me uncomfortable. 
It is outside my comfort zone to just spend a day with me and Jesus with no visible human contact. 

I guess what I am saying is that moving out of a comfort zone is not necessarily about dramatic change but rather about us leading on God and letting Him show us how to be comfortable in situations we aren't usually comfortable in. It is about pushing ourselves to be more in touch with Him way and His will. 

At the moment I am learning that being alone does not have to equal depression or terror but that it can be joyful and a time to discover God and learn more about His world. It is an opportunity for me to listen to Him and go where He tells me- even just to the shops and back. It is a new way of living which I never really understood before. 

Anyway that is what I have been thinking today
love and God Bless